“Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.” -Jesus in John 12:24
Jesus gave up his life to usher his people back into relationship with God. I am completely okay with accepting that Jesus died for this purpose but we refuse to die ourselves. I act as if my life is more valuable than Jesus’ because I will not lay mine down in the same way he did. If anyone deserves to die it would be me, not Jesus because whatever is more valuable should be saved first. When asked the hypothetical question, “if your house was burning down and you could grab one thing, what would you grab?” My answer is not “socks!” No, my answer is “wedding pictures.” I save the pictures from the flames because their value far exceeds socks. So whose life is more valuable, Jesus’ or mine? Who should be saved from death? I know the answer but yet I act the opposite. I applaud Jesus for his death but when he commands me to do the same I ignore him. I act as if I didn’t hear him because I do not want to hear him. I do not want to die.

I refuse to have my “cool” reputation murdered at work or school for the sake of the gospel and the good of those around me. I refuse to have my desire for safety and control murdered so that I can love a strange people in a strange part of the world who have never heard the good news of Jesus. I refuse to have my desire for comfort and rest after a long day of work murdered so that I can love and serve my wife wholeheartedly. I refuse to die like Jesus and I treat his life as more expendable than my own. I would never, ever say that my life is more valuable than Jesus’ but my actions proclaim this plainly.
The most unbelievable and shocking thing in all of this is that God still passionately loves me and counts me perfectly righteous in Jesus. Even though I so often treat him with contempt, he chooses to save me from the burning house at the cost of his own life. Why wouldn’t I lay down every facet of my life in submission to such a person? To not do so will lead me to the coma of mediocrity and apathy. I/we have been saved to die selflessly for those who do not yet know him, but will one day worship him as we do.
